Wired Shut - One's Girl's Journey with a Broken Jaw
Friday, 5 July 2013
Day 16: Surgeon appointment
It's weird though, I was under the impression that I'd be seeing him every week, I mean there isn't really anything alarming going on, he said there were no signs of infection and that everything seemed to be healing nicely. Eh, what can I say? He's a busy guy.
I got my chin dressing off - finally-.. But I realize that I look a lot different then I thought I did. My chin is reaally short now. Like really short. I feel like I have a little fat head now and that I look like a rat. I don't know, I'm not too happy with the results so far.. Hopefully it's just the swelling and I'll look better after, but then again who really knows.
I'll post some before and after pics and an update on swelling and numbness later on, I'm just super drained right now.
Thursday, 4 July 2013
15 days post op
I'd read online that some people blended up mac and cheese and even mashed potatoes. The mashed potatoes, lemme tell was a heaven on earth if I'd ever eaten it.. but the mac and cheese hmm..
I mean I don't hate it but it's not great. I'm sure if I was on a regular diet I'd have thrown up by now..
It's kind of like a cheesy oatmeal.. don't think I'll ever do this again.
In other news, I've been great so far - other than some teeth pain which is fine because that means I have feeling in those teeth. My numbness is steadily going down as is the swelling. There's still a lot there but its quite the improvement.
My skin has also been peeling a lot around my nose, which I've heard happens after jaw surgery.
hmm, I'm good I just wish I could eat something. and I've got another 3-4 weeks until I'm unwired. (I die a little more inside everyday.) I'm tired of liquids. I hate milkshakes. I doubt I'll be drinking anymore after this whole ordeal. I hate soup, I've ruined mac and cheese for myself (let's be real, I'll never forget this mac and cheese oatmeal thing ever in my life)
I just want a burger, and pizza, and my moms pasta. And a sub from subway like that right now would be awesome. Honestly, I'll be happy if I could just open my mouth wide enough to yawn comfortably, and eat without having pieces of food stuck behind, in, between and wrapped all around my braces and surgical hooks & wires.
But it's okay! I'll distract myself by having movie/tv marathons and trying to go out, all though it's not fun when I talk like someone who reeeaaallly needs to go LOL.
But I have my first appointment with the surgeon at 8:45 am so we'll see how that goes.
Friday, 28 June 2013
Looks and stares
Seriously I just feel like Writing BROKEN JAWS on my cheeks so people would just look once and leave me alone
I honestly feel for people who have to go through this constantly and sometimes throughout their whole lives. This is why even before my surgery I made an effort to not look and if I did to smile like I would with anyone else and not gawk at them like theyre some lab experiment gone wrong.
On another note.. tell me its normal for the swelling to be going down sooo slowly. It seriously feels like it hasn't gone down at all.
And the discomfort in my teeth. Idk maybe its the wires pulling at them and clenching down all day long but wow, its pretty uncomfortable. Its like when you get your braces tightened except its on every single molar and pre molar. Oh well id rather have that then no feeling so~ no complaints here.
Day 8: into the real world~
Wednesday, 26 June 2013
Day 6: Premonition??
I've noticed that because my jaws are wired shut they are putting a lot of pressure on one of my molars which is thankfully the only source of my pain so far!
Today I just again, bummed around, put off studying and slept.
I only got about two hours of sleep from 5 -7 because of the weird sensations in my face. But that is A-OK if it means the nerves are regenerating.
On a more important note. Negativity. This is something we need to try hard to get rid of from our lives, even before and after jaw surgery in all aspects of our lives.
Negativity about our corrective, yes corrective jaw surgery is something obviously not unheard of.
But we need to ignore it. Yes, I have just started to hear from some really negative people in my life that I'm "fake" and treating this like I went off and got plastic surgery because I thought I was ugly or I hated my chin or nose, which I never did. And no, even plastic surgery shouldn't be looked at so negatively. At the end of the day the person doing it, wants to do it to be happy. If it doesn't affect anyone negatively then all power to ya! Good for them. But talking about corrective jaw surgery by using plastic surgery in a negative light can, and has made people angry.
It's OK.
I tried eating noodle soup today blended lol not a good idea. Seriously, all the spaces inbetween my teeth became so blocked up. I don't even know how I'm going to get all this stuff out :((
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It was a totally bad idea, I ended up freaking out because it went everywhere and i think I ripped some stitches which sucks because I can't even see my surgeon at the one week mark - happy one week to me.
Tuesday, 25 June 2013
Nerve regeneration?
But don't even get me wrong, they can go all night if it means I'm getting more feeling back in my face. It's not painful or anything but it feels sooo fucking weird. Like I can't even explain the feeling, it's quite uncomfortable.
Monday, 24 June 2013
Day 5: A good day :)
But I'm a bit anxious because I slightly reaaaaaally softly blew my nose because it was unbearable and oh wowowowow the stuff that's sitting in your nose after upper jaw surgery is soooo grossss. But special tip INVEST IN A HUMIDIFIER if you don't already have one. Seriously, the like few times mine wasn't on, my congestion built right up, but with it my nose has been amazingly clear. I don't know what I would have done without mine!
I also have this gauze/tape thing wrapped underneath my lower jaw and chin and let me just tell you, it is not fun! Starting from last night, it began to itch like crazy, the tape is already beginning to peel so I'm trying so carefully to scratch it but it just doesn't work. Ugh, and I'm stuck with this thing for the next 3 or 4 days too boo T.T
-- Oh random, LOL this economics exam that I have in a few days is really getting to my subconscious. I'm having dreams about economics, which I'm sure isn't very healthy. With that, I've noticed at least one dream if not more these days since my jaw surgery, like I don't know what it is, but I don't forget my dreams these days which is awesome cause my dreams are quite entertaining tbh, who knew I had such a head on me.
omg lol I seriously can't stress this enough, you never realize how good looking you were until you have jaw surgery, I mean I look an ugly mess dude.
As for eating, I'm starting to well drink more everyday which is good but to be honest it does not help at all. Liquids just get processed so fking fast in your stomach I'm literally hungry with minutes ughughugh I guess I better get used to it.
On top of that however, Im finding that my energy levels have taken a huge nose dive. Seriously, I hate how cleaning my teeth makes me tired enough that I want to take a nap! ugh.
After my nap:
Honestly, today was a great day! I felt pretty much normal except for the mouth which wasn't at all painful, just gross. Not brushing the insides is taking a huge toll on me!! It seriously feels so gross and slimy ugh. just 5 more weeks..
As for pain.. I seriously had like no jaw pain today thank god, I'm hoping it doesnt come later on, and its awesome because I haven't taken pain meds at all since I've been home, plus the numbness in my face is starting to decrease quite a bit. My tongue isn't numb at all and neither are some of my teeth, they're starting to get sore from being crushed all day LOL
And I've got some studying done which is awesome because when I tried yesterday I literally COULDN'T.
Thank god today went so smoothly, I'm praying for another good tomorrow for the rest of my recovery! So much better than yesterday.